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In this post, I’m sharing a story of how I let God go deep in my life.
God sees the deep turmoil in our hearts. And He responds to our prayers to be free of what’s holding us back.
The freedom He gives us goes hand-in-hand with growing spiritually.
Walk as children of Light, trying to learn what is pleasing to the Lord. Ephesians 5:8,10 NASB
Almost 20 years ago, God showed me that I had an idol in my life: reading my Calvin and Hobbes comic books. I owned nearly the entire collection. Not that there’s anything wrong with reading cartoon comics, but God showed me that reading them in excess was out of balance with my responsibilities.
I felt the prodding of the Holy Spirit to cut up my books! And like the *perfect* Christian I was, I submitted without protest:
What? Couldn’t I just cut back on reading them? That would still be cutting, right, with no scissors involved?
His conviction drowned out my panicking, and I couldn’t help but question why He wanted me to take scissors to my prized possession. Somehow I knew it went even deeper than my obsession with them.
He showed me that some of the material was feeding a weakness in which I had been praying to be an overcomer.
Now that I saw how He was choosing to answer my prayer, I surrendered without hesitation:
But, God, cut them up? Are you sure this is the best way?
At that point, I knew He had left the decision to me. I heard that the Holy Spirit is a “gentleman.” Now, I knew what that meant. He wouldn’t force me to do it. The choice was mine.
God isn’t a controller, but He invites us to go deep with Him. As a result, we grow into a greater spiritual maturity.
I knew that if I cut up the books, I would be delivered immediately in both areas.
So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed. John 8:36 NASB
I told my family what the Lord had shown me, and they were supportive all the way even though they asked me if I was sure I wanted to do this.
I knew it would be difficult, but I decided I would rather please the Lord and be free immediately than continually struggle with these temptations.
As I began to get the scissors out, I faltered with my new decision. Those books were worth an awful lot of money.
Couldn’t I just sell them?
Kelly R. Baker is a Bible study teacher, writer, mentor, and the founder of the Blogger Voices Network. She serves with her husband in leading the worship ministry at their church. You will probably find her sneaking a bite (or more) of organic dark chocolate in between wrangling her four kids. Her greatest passion is helping women thrive in Christ. Connect with her at www.kellyrbaker.com.