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Seven years ago, I didn’t think I’d be still here today; I was struggling.
I couldn’t leave my house or drive my car without my heart beating out of my chest. My sweaty, white-knuckled fingers would make impressions on the steering wheel when I had to pick up my kids from school.
My every day was plagued with fear of what was going on with me. I went from doctor to doctor who gave me head-to-toe tests, ruled out diagnoses and never came to conclusion about what was wrong. Something was going on, but no one could pinpoint it.
Of course, I prayed, but answers and resolutions to my problem were very slow in coming. I was frustrated at God, and in other moments, extremely mad at Him. My life was not what I thought it should be.
I was living a nightmare, and I got to the point where I couldn’t go on anymore. I didn’t want to live another day if I couldn’t escape the torment.
Inspiring Stories Offer Hope
On really bad days, I would read of Corrie ten Boom, Anne Frank, Victor Frankl and other inspiring people because they gave me perspective. What I was dealing with paled in comparison to the struggles they had.
Their words and endurance were quenching to my weary soul. It gave me the determination to continue fighting another day.
What if these bold fighters had kept their stories to themselves? What if they hadn’t shared their struggles?
What if they didn’t want to admit the feelings they had gone through, the pain and struggle with their faith?
Each of us has dealt with something hard in our lives. If it hasn’t happened yet for you, let me break the bad news, it will. God promises us we will have trouble.
33 I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.
Everyone has some form of pain and suffering they’ve experienced. Many times, don’t we feel like we are the only ones who struggle? Social media– and perhaps even our friends– seem to be living on the easy street, but we’re in endless difficulties.
Who wants to showcase their nervous breakdowns, depression or bipolar diagnosis? Instead, we want to tell others that we’re “great” and that life is fine.
But, My Story is too Bad to Tell
We’re afraid to share our stories because we feel like others won’t like us if we tell the truth.
My story is too evil, bad, horrible, sinful… you add the description you’ve used in your mind before.
People would see the real us, and what if they didn’t like it? What if they looked down their noses at us?
Rejection is a definite reality when we expose our past to the light.
So, we hide and find the most flattering mask we can wear so our truth is buried deeper.
It’s exhausting, isn’t it?
My past is not something I’m proud of. I’ve tried to be someone else and buried my hurt down inside. Because I was hurt, I hurt those I loved. I was moody, unpredictable, and unhappy.
Keeping my story hidden not only hurt me by not working through the pain and letting God use it to grow me and my faith, but it hurt others who I could have encouraged and inspired with my story.
I could have been a better friend, wife, and daughter if I let others know what I was feeling instead of suppressing and pushing it down.
Exposing my pain would have pushed me to depend on God more than I ever have before.
Instead, I suffered longer than I had to.
When God urged me to write, I told Him He was foolish.
I thought I had to heal first and then write. What I have found is sharing my story has healed so many of my gaping heart holes.
The pain and shamefulness I have felt for so long are replaced with hope and a purpose of reaching other women struggling in hard times.
Telling your Story
What if I told you someone out there needed to hear your story? What if their life would change and become better because of you?
What if your healing came about by sharing the very thing you want to hide?
The worse parts of your past could be the most encouraging and life-changing words to someone else.
You become an expert with the experience you have gone through.
I don’t know about you, but I want to hear about others’ experiences. I’d like to hear about their struggle and how with God they overcame it. It’s uplifting when I hear about how God brought them through.
You can be a comfort to other Christians who are struggling because your pain can become a powerful testimony. God will help you overcome, and He will grow you through the process.
God needs you as His hands and feet in a culture where the focus is self-help. Life transformation and complete healing only happen through God.
He is the only one who can transform us into the masterpiece He has planned.
We are living in a world where others lose their lives each day. Unbelief, death, suicide, and many other tragic endings are stealing lives each day. The evil one is running rampant, and people are without God and His hope.
What if your life experience created hope and encouragement to another person who is going to come up to you in Heaven and say thank you because you made a difference in their life?