Know

I’ve been quiet lately. I don’t have much to say. I fumble for words and grapple for ideas and hunt for notes and search through quotes and pray for guidance, but nothing comes. It’s happened before and will eventually pass, but it always makes me feel a bit sad and a little angry. I want to be able to do the thing I’ve been called to, but it’s hard when there’s no fresh inspiration. I stay in my corner praying the words will come back; I sit and stare at the screen hoping my fingers will somehow start hovering over the right keys and begin pecking out truth subconsciously. That hasn’t happened.  And I know everyone says to push through it—that if you’re a real writer you’ll keep going anyway—but I’m tapped out and I’d rather say nothing than something stupid or uninspired.

And I think it’s okay to be out of words, to be quiet, to have nothing new. Because it is in these times I realize I don’t always need the new I think I do, I just need what I know: in spite of my lack—even when I don’t see Him, even when I can’t hear Him or feel Him—He is still there. He doesn’t move. He is constant and unchanging. My location and situation may have changed, but His has not. God knows, He sees, He cares. He is not limited by my feelings or struggles; He is not confined to the box I sometimes put Him in. He has not forgotten me—He knows right where I am.

I don’t need something new—I just need to remember what I already know. He is good. He is faithful. He works for my good in spite of all these things—in spite of me.

So, I’m going to take a break for a while. I’m going to concentrate less on finding something new and just settle in with what I know already.

Are you seeking fresh and new but just can’t seem to find it? Be encouraged today. Sometimes we don’t need new. Sometimes we need to focus less on finding new revelation and concentrate on putting into practice the knowledge we already have. Sometimes we just need to remember.

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. – Hebrews 13:8 (NIV)

About the author : Deidra Manning

Deidra Manning

Married for 17 years, Deidra has three children--a son and identical twin daughters--and two cairn terriers, Clementine and Tex. She holds a Master’s degree in Psychology and is in recovery from depression and eating disorder.

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